Day 2 of 31 Days of Connecting
We are in church, worshiping, in awe and adoration of the Love God has for us when suddenly that line is there. There on the screen. And the condemnation and shame I felt as a Christian child, teenager, and young adult squeezes my throat, condemns my heart.
“Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held him there…“
I was brought up with this theology. I’ve even preached it once. This idea that Christ had to die, because of me. That I put Christ on the cross. That I held the nail. That with each sin I commit Christ dies again.
For years I lived in the oppression of shame and humiliation. For years I was stained by my sin, not cleansed, because I was told it was my fault Jesus died.
So I tried to live my best so he would not have to die. I tried to be good enough so that He would not have to go to the cross.
But every year on Good Friday I was horrified by the guilt of placing Jesus on the cross.
Except… except the Bible never says that.
The Bible never says that we put Him there. The Bible never says that Jesus had to die. Sin did not hold him there. In fact, it is exactly the opposite.
Yes, it is true that sin condemns, but it does not condemn Jesus. It condemns us. The wages of sin is death – and we should die.
But God, in His great love for us, and desire to be connected to us, decided to intervene, to save us.
These words make me weep. I am finally free.
Yes. He chose to die. Because He loved us. And He wanted to rescue us. To heal us. To redeem us. To be with us. So that we might live a life of freedom in Christ, filled with the love of God, the power of the Holy Spirit and completely connected to Him.
Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! –Romans 7:25