It’s Friday again and I want to be more disciplined in my writing so I am going to once again join the Five Minute Friday writing community. You are welcome to join us! Every week we write for 5 minutes on the prompt given by Kate Motaung. This week’s prompt is “Enough.” I’d love to hear what you have to say. Here is what’s been on my heart this week:
I made a simple mistake and became flustered when the woman across the room mouthed to me, “Are you pregnant?” and motioned towards my tummy.
I blinked back my surprise and said “no” as politely (and dignified) as I could, but then in an attempt to defend my bump, said I have had trouble losing weight there.
She then suggested I do planks.
It was a fairly innocent moment. I don’t think she meant to do harm. But when my 5 year old came up to me days later, patted my tummy and asked me if there was a baby inside, my face burned with humiliation.
When will I have done enough exercising, dieting, etc etc to look the way a woman my age is “supposed” to look. When will it have been enough?
I shared a post I wrote a couple of years ago on my Facebook page the other day about accepting my baby bump from the two babies I birthed as my new normal – and yet I still struggle with feeling like enough as a woman/mom with the standards society pushes out at us.
Is the house clean enough?
Is the food healthy enough?
Is the discipline effective enough?
Is the time spent quality enough?
Am I thin enough?
Did I communicate well enough?
I find myself overwhelmed and ashamed. No. It’s not. I will never be enough.
And I have a choice. To give in to the message that somehow I could be “enough” if I continued to strive. Or to present it all to Jesus, broken and imperfect for Him to restore.
The Enemy wants to take away what I have by making me feel like it is all not enough.
Jesus came to give us life to the full.
Where do you struggle with being enough? How can I pray for you?